it was already a known fact..
but it just feels like its being re-introduced again..
is it suppose to feel that way the same time of every year..
i hate it.
its not helping since theres nth else better to do now.
sumbody giv me smth to do!!!





its kinda hard to explain the feelings in words...
isnt any suitable words..
but coz i've gone thru it..
i guess i can cope wif it..
it wasnt easy the 1st time..
wudnt b easy this time.. but maybe just a lil less painful than b4..

i hav a gut feeling of the outcome already..

dun need to wait for 2 yrs..
i tink i already noe..
its sad n heart breaking to assume the prediction..
but wad to do.
life's not fair.
u dun get wad u want all the time.
but then again..
i guess u dun hafta to b wif the one u lurf... yes, still instilling that tot in my brain after a yr..
nowadays lurf is so hard to define.. i wonder whether i'm confused by its meaning..

anyhow.. although i have my assumptions.. that i hope wud not come true..
guess i shall just hope and wait for 2 yrs..
sometimes it sucks to not noe y ur mind and heart and brain function in such a way that make u feel this way..
sigh.

broken mug still there.
still standing outside the tunnel.. sitting on a chair... staring at my dark tunnel.

LIFE still has gotta GO ON!

Y r we back to square one?
Is there a new line u wud like to draw?
I tot I drew a line oledi..
u tell me that if I cannot make it to the line..
then I MUST tell u…
and so I agreed and also reassure and insist that I will get to the line..
I cant help it if u dun trust me..
I noe its my fault that u dun..
The damage has already been done..
I’ve apologized many times.. though it wun make a difference..
Anen suddenly u start at square one.. and make up ur assumptions..
the killer words ‘don’t care’..
how do u expect me to react n reply..
I noe u so well.. no matter wad my reply is, I already noe how d look on ur face is when u get it and ur next action even..
And fair enuff.. next action correct *tick*

I already drew the line..
It may seem hard for me to reach the line..
Ok.. it is hard for us to reach the line..
That’s y u ask me to tell u if I cant..

Wad exactly r ur intentions??
If u wanna cut the line… then just tell me y.
I dun wanna fight.

pissy. sien.

its gud to b back to this not so foreign land.. ya.. familiar land.. home.
BUT
it doesnt feel the same like b4 anymore..
and i hate it.
slap rite in the face..
hmm... 'Michele, welcome to adulthood'.
a taste of adulthood.
i hate it.
i dun wanna feel responsible for anything.
i dun wanna feel burdened by anything.
responsibility... burden.. thats for parents!
24 already.. an adult already.. sigh.
can it wait. ;(
hmm.. guess not le.
i SHUD b doing this..
sharing the responsibilities...
really feel like running away!!! normal human instinct..
but i noe i shudnt.

I dun care!!
Blardy hell.. give me a job sumwhr else pls!!
But wad to do here when theres so many mths of waiting for posting..

Can I just go back to kl and rot there??
But I’m renting my place till may only..

Can I move out??
Hmm not possible.

Can I just get a job so that I dun hafta stay home all the time??
The best idea already...
Sumbody get me a part time job!!
I dun care about the pay… erm.. but maybe not that low plz ;P
Waitress…
Tuition teacher…
Kindergarten school teacher… ehehhe..
High school teacher…
Erm.. assistant clerk? Do clerks need assistants?
Ideas ideas?!?!?

Yes.. pissy.. very pissy…always always pissy…
Me = pissy.
Wud nvr not b pissy. NEVER.
Me not pissy = me lost identity.
Rite?