GOOSE!

its been a long long time.

how time flies.

yes.. emo-ing bout the past.

a reply?

its just been a few days.. specifically 4 days.
but i tink time just suddenly feels like snail mode.
the decision has been made.. made wif alot of reluctance relli.

the mail has been sent.
it has been received.. confirm.
life is busy.. i don't expect a reply too soon.
but i noe u noe i m waiting for one.
will u keep me waiting and reply late?
wud u just not reply? plz.. no.

it DOES matter whether there is a reply or not.
it really wud mean alot to me for a reply.
sigh.

whatever the content may be,
it matters.

i'm out.

gropping in my dark tunnel..
i saw a a small ugly coloured spark..
so i walked closer.. the closer i went the bigger it looked.. it bcame obvious how ugly the colour of light looked.. but i had to get out of the tunnel..
so much shit was being pumped into the tunnel.. it was up to my neck already...
so i'm out of my dark tunnel.
i love and miss me dark tunnel... though searching around the dark... minus all the shit..
after all it was MY dark tunnel..
oh well...
even though i'm out.. i'm sitting wif my legs dangling n swinging outside the dark tunnel..
i'll b doing that for awhile..
i got use to the dark tunnel.. now out in the bright sun.. i need time to get use to it..
its gona b abit hard.. but i can do it..
n dun worry.. i'll b fine.. just need TIME.

hah. happy b'day Michele. Finals is on mon.

aiti..
do u noe how it feels like when its ur bday..
and u're not in the mood at all for it.. coz u hafta study!! cipiet.
but then.. lu yu bo ane eh tang study... coz alot of tings are on ur mind..
1. its ur b'day!
2. this other human.. hai..
3. fck. finals! as in THE finals.

sigh.. its easier to just keep everything behind my mind..
abuden.. KONG si geh le..
CHO is kang ko..

luan..
luan..
luan..
although theres alot of tings.. but..
everything wud b alot lighter after finals.. i cant wait!! -gazellion and two times-

but anyhow.. tenks for those that msged me..
and the few that came at like 12.40am (yes purposely so late).. tenks!!
means alot.. taking up ur studying time.. hugz.

it wud hav been better if u showed up at my door step..
but who m i kidding. :(

i remember 030404

every single time this yr.. i will always rem this day.. what happened..
030404
i duno y also..
n i'll rem back every single detail..
its weird..
but u noe it don't matter anymore..
i wish it did but..
after so many tings has happened..
after so many years..
i mean.. its been so long..
but at least i noe back that time.. i was really happy :)
sometimes i wish i cud go back into time.. to experience how 'that happy' felt again..
regrets..
ya we all hav them..
oh well..
i cant undo the past.. the tings that i hav done.. or the tings that i have said..
once its gone.. its gone..
once 'that-happy' is gone.. its gone..
embrace the fact huh?
duno.
thats not the point..
the point is that.. i just remember.. and i will remember it always.. every yr of todai.
orange long sleeve shirt ;) i miss the smell of it.

aiya. aiya. aiya.

aiya. aiya. aiya.
yes.. still in those wad-d-fck periods..

haiya. haiya. haiya.
EVERYTHING is so sickening-ly sien.
yes.. sickening-ly sien.

study breaks makes me constipated..
i feel so bloated.
(oh my word, it rhymes!)
hmm extra information? ;P

i cant wait till its OVER!!!!! said it again.. gazellion n one times.