oh my...its the last day of the year.

Gudness me.. it’s the last day of the year oledi…
New yr resolutions…. Erm…
I wudnt b too ambitious….
I tink I’ll b too humble if I wanted to not be soo pissy next yr… coz I can feel a lot of pissiness n bitchiness coming soon…
But but.. I cant help it.. some ppl are just so irrationale!!!
THEY just get on my nerves u noe..
She does..
And the other she does..
Hmph.
Thanx for making my spiritual life “easy”!
I just dun get it.. i nvrrrrrrrrr… and will nvr ever..
Sometimes.. my inner monologue wants to EXPLODE!!!
Omg.. if humans dun hav inner monologues… I tell u.. I’ll b doom forever..
Thr’ll b a lot of…
“whatever!”
“get outta my face, bitch”
“wud u shut up already, damn it”
“wad the heck!!”
“omg.. did that just came outta ur mouth!”
Etc etc etc.. so many I dun even recall…
Bleh.
I’ve been feeling quite abit of pissiness recently..
And all I do when my inner monologue is racing is.. roll my eyes..
Urgh… yar recent pissiness…
I do not understand how some ppl dun sit down and hav some ME time.. anen R E F L E C T…
Is it normal not to?? Or m I just the odd one dat does?? But the last time I check.. IT IS NORMAL…
I dun giv a damn if u’re the only child.. or if ur parents are divorce… or u just whatever whatever..
I dun c why any1 shud b made an exception if they hav such a selfish personality aside from those that are… crippled or blind or… anything disabled…
Tink about it…
if 1 person tinks u’re selfish.. fine..
2 people… fine
5 people… ok acceptable…
10 people.. still sorta acceptable..
20 people.. at such high number… U TINK!!
I seriously can get half of the class in agreeing wif me on dat… and dats more than 20 ppl..
I honestly.. treat u as a fren.. yar a fren.. not being pretentious..
Sometimes I wud like to giv u the benefit of the doubt… BUT ur actions NVR EVER make it easy..
Why do u always hafta make life so hard for urself??
Shudnt it b time to reflect on urself???
How can u tink that its everybody elses problem.. when its YOURS…
I’m not an angel… but.. I dun care that I’m complaining…
The old bun wud hav gone in fits oledi…
And I seriously need to praise myself…
Aside from complaining to the ppl around.. I haven’t even snap in front of this person…
And I seriously have been so kind.. to try not to talk to her if I dun hav to…
In michele’s standard.. this is oledi considered… real G O O D.
Plz plz plz ..Plz dun push me to the limit oledi…
And if I hear abit of another twisted F A C T yes… TWISTED FACT… from ur mouth from sum1 else..
I’m sori but.. dats dat.
Dun step on my tail… I’m a bitter woman.. n u wudnt like it.
This particular sum1… ok .. my English isn’t superb.. my spelling is horrible.. my grammar is just junior english level… but when I get pissy at sum1.. I seriously tend to get annoyed at their English..
Its so annoying u noe.. how can u make such grammatical error.. like…“I dun meaning to…”
But I guess I’m being bias la..
The sound of this person’s phrased English.. just makes me wanna leave and get out of the room.. my inner monologue.. “ah whatever” *imagines myself leaving*.. hehehe…
Am I making any sense??
It ac is a known fact that such ppl have such actions… it ac is so her.. dat its embedded in her personality oledi.. her personality=selfish…
I guess.. it will always b the same le…
I’m kinda disappointed in her partner.. he deserves better.. but.. love is blind and I definitely agree wif dat .. but dat is none of my business...





Oh… yar new yr resolution.. hehehe… first…Most important ting TO GRADUATE IN MAY 2009! .
Second… be nice???
Nah. ;P

uncalled for.

Lipstick jungle is like a reflection on what we WERE, what we HAD.. do note the use of past tense..
Its inevitable really..
Sometimes it feels like a real thin line..
I try not to blame any1 but its kinda hard.. and honestly I tink that I dun bear responsibility at all.. even if I did.. just 10%.. I played my part as I shud hav.. and if time repeats.. it wud still b the same.
It all boils down to priorities.. I guess every1 hav diff priorities with the addition of work n relationship..
I get it.. I get it.. I wud say I have my own..
But sumtimes me not being u guys... cant comprehend..
But u’re actions are predictable.. u dun c any1 else when u’re into IT… that I dun get.. as years pass by.. it sorta became embedded into ur identity… so whenever ur IT come along.. I nvr expected much of u really.. this isn’t at all envy.. definitely not.. I wud nvr say this coz it sounds mean.. but having a life just revolving around ur boy (ya, not man) most of the time is.. pretty… sad. But I guess in the long run when every1 else gets married mayb dat wud b of more advantage huh.
I always tot of this part of u this way.. but I noe I am no1 to say anything in this area of ur life..
I guess I noe I shudnt blame any1..
But things like this takes its natural course..
Like I said a thin line…
but every1 is bz…
and its hard to maintain a frenship.. not everything is perfect..
but I noe that we all hav good intentions for this..
and I noe for sure that we do plan for things to go till forever n whenever..
but no matter wad.. I noe they’ll b there… and I’ll b thr.. at least thats comfortable to noe..and not assume..
sometimes it feels quite virtual.

N btw its just a random tot that pops out in my mind once in awhile and not due to anything that has happened.
Nth is happening n my life is not even close to dramatic… aside from shouting at one of my Seremban housemate.. wud u call that drama?? Hehehhe… but it all ended well.. I’m sori but I was just being me telling off sum1 like her.. n I wudnt do it any other way.
U noe.. my batchmates are just waiting for 6 gals stuck in a house in Seremban to.. EXPLODE..
Well, if u dun count me shouting..as an explosion then.. I’m sori to disappoint u guys.. for now… ;P

1st week in Seremban hospital

Hospital attachment.. this time round it felt better than in sem 6… I knew it wud b better..
Everything feels like in a slower pace.. a more comfortable pace…
Not having the feeling of being mocked by my lack of knowledge unintentionally like in the Klang hospital.. bleh.. bad memories.. uek still dun like miss-i-look-like-a-horse-and-like-olive-popeye's wife...
But anyways a hospital IS a hospital…
Its like the minute u go into the wards.. u feel the sadness aura.. get d picture??
There was one time in the ward yest.. whr a patient was wif a dr covered by the hospital drapes .. n the patient was shouting n hauling n crying all at the same time.. while the dr shouted to ask him to calm down to allow her to do some procedure… it sounded so nerve wrecking… his daughter was just standing out there… helpless… sad. Most of the patients around r malay n Indian coz it’s a third class ward… sigh.. its saddening le.. u c them but u cant help them much.. not even the dr sometimes…
A batchmate of mine was saying “I’m nvr gona let my parents stay in a third class ward and let medical students check them etc etc”.. I was kinda piss off.. no. 1 its teaching hospital so duh.. and in order for medical students to learn n b a real dr they need to do REAL PRACTICALS… u noe I dun mind to contribute as a patient towards their learning k.. no. 2 she is SO not ‘INTACT’ wif reality.. yar those rich brats… NOBODY WUD WANNA B IN A THIRD CLASS WARD…. Logic.. common sense.. whr did dat go I wonder… if every1 had money then third and second class wudnt even exist…. But reality isn’t so… u shud look down at those less fortunate then u and try to accommodate to their needs… I tink the ting that less fortunate ppl dread of is getting sick.. tink of the medical cost.. tink of no1 working to feed the family… sometimes rich brats like her shud just b stuck in Africa or some ulu place to taste what its like to b poor and not get want all the time… tinking about it pisses me off!

Hmm on a lighter note… overall being in Seremban isn’t dat bad… after all its just 6 gals in an apartment for A WEEK only… d drama haven’t started?? Beats me ;P tenk goodness we get to go back during the weekends…

Was in the IMU clinical school lib in Seremban.. and this was wad I noticed…

I was sitting at the couch… my view on my right…

My view on my left….

Hehehehe… c wad IMU does to medical students.. make them really really tired….
U c ppl.. being a doctor.. isn’t dat easy..
Dats y I’m a pharmacist =)