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last weekend till this week is all bout the haiya's'... and the sighing... and the pissiness in the house of God... knowing that u shudnt blame others for getting angry at them.. lashing out at them...
i mean OK...ITS THEIR FAULT... but... if u cud control urself at least alil and learn to shut the heck up then it wud hav been better... ok ok.. the onli reason that i'm angry at myself for being angry is coz i "lashed" out at sum1.. just 2 words... SHUT UP... its ok in a normal basis but in church.. just feels wrong.. although i noe God is EVERYWHERE.. hehehe.. ok i sound so redundant n illogical etc etc.. whatever..
i mean... i can hear chia woon laffing in my head oledi.. but i just feel bad... bleh. nvm.
the words came out of my mouth.. it sounded harsh-er than it was meant 2.. and it was kinda loud... but u noe...there isnt anything about my voice that is not loud so thats just it.
but u just cant help it.. when sum1 keeps complainin n complainin... and make nth smth... u get the picture... its like a noise buzzing n buzzing... like a bumblebee there at ur ear... u just wanna smack and pound it...
if u wanna whine n whine bout some petty stuff and is so reluctant to serve GOd than u noe wad... God probably b whining to u when u c him after u die... He might be reluctant to even judge u... coz y... He doesnt wanna waste His time... HAH.. TASTE UR OWN MEDICINE.
ok i'm no better saying that bout sum1.. just piss.
i ac still belief in karma... and so karma happens la.. (i noe i shudnt.. but i belief in Jesus more than karma =])

moving on to the next 'topic' / 'wonder' (omg.. i keep saying "moving on to" in my research presentation i even use it here.... had to present 3 mock-presentations ok... friday, sunday, tues... gosh.. which was gud in a way... keep altering to better it)..
anyways... specking of this other topic... (yes.. do note that this blog is meant for grumbling and ranting.. which is wad i m doing)...
its a wonder WHY some ppl... they just dun seem to b humble at all...
i dun get it...
they'll say tings like "i'm gud at...." ah whatever i cant seem to recall all those NOT SO humble sentences...
sometimes they do tings waiting to b praised.. but u just b nice le... giv them praises although u tink otherwise.. wad the heck la... they make u lie to them... they force u to lie! stupid.
but i guess being 2 straight forward all the time wun get u anywhr..
its like if sum1 looks gud in a dress... ask ur opinion about it.. then u say the dress is nice...
BUT if she keeps standing in front of u asking n asking u at the same time tapping ur shoulder... and u continuously praise her... and she still continuously tap ur shoulder... its like "get u n u freaking dress OUTTA MY FACE!!!....ENUFF OLEDI!... get wad i mean...
hehhehe...
this is so random...
and my analogy sucks...
but nvm. ;P

Research result presentation is a week from now... i'm 3/4 done...
still need to brush up on my discussion...
and my presenting skills...
lab work done =)))))))))))))
no more sleepless nites in the lab =)))))))))))
but thesis writing coming up =((((((((((((((((
BUT who cares bout that yet... coz i'm going home in 9 DAYS!!! packing in progress... sori le i'm too anxious.. ;P
laid back life in Kuching... where lifts move slower... tap water runs slower.... and... whr mom's nagging sound like music to my ears... sounds gud to me =) hehehe...

Super LONG update.

I;ve been bz… been bz ..been bz.. so I’ve got no time to update…
Only till now that I get to settle down and sorta slow down….
The previous emo post is already so ancient and I’ve already gotten over it ages ago!!

The pass mth plus has been quite hectic..and bzzzzzzzzzzzz…..
Ups and downs… in terms of research of coz.. bleh.. if u wanna experience all the different variations of emotions in life.. ok I mean MOST of the emotions in life.. I suggest u do RESEARCH..
Wtf..
Happy.
Sad.
Angry.
Disappointment.
Excitement.
Laziness. Tiredness. [I dun tink these are emotions rite ;P]

Anyways…
mistakes here and there…
uncertainties here and there…
4getfullness here and there….
That’s what research is all about and I HATE IT.

But thank goodness my lab partners are sane ppl…

every1 have their flaws..

so I guess it sorta balance up..

I mean so far we haven’t gotten into major trouble…

aside from that UV spectrophotometer, that thank God we din burn the UV bulb that cost 2k but just the tungsten bulb that cost a few hundred

BUT there hasn’t been any word of us needing to pay for it…

and I’m gona PRETEND that it nvr happened and not ask any1 about it..

just in case we hafta pay

*gRin*

ignorance is bliss.
Dun ask me how a stupid tungsten bulb can cost a few hundred..

its pathetic.

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Every time that I hear sum1 telling me that there was riot in town i’m relief that I wasn’t there…
I mean it is quite likely that I might b around there on a Sunday for church…
The other time when anwar had this huge thingie whr all the ppl were in yellow to protest for duno wad..

I was in masjid jamek for church but at that time it ended oledi..

I cud only c a lot of ppl in yellow hats or smth there…
BUT

last Saturday I went to church alone.. and after leaving Mcd wif my Spicy McChicken Deluxe (*YummY*).. suddenly I saw like a riot going on at the opposite street… wth.
People carrying candles, Malaysian flags, coloured banners that I wasn’t quick enuff to notice and read… they were like chanting and walking along the street…
B4 this I felt that it was quite odd that there were polices controlling the traffic…
Was kinda worried u noe.. wad if the ppl in the riot started to get all emo and agitated and angry then pick a fight wif who ever… then it wud b such a havoc…
Scared le for sure
So I quickily head to the lrt station and get in.. felt safer there…
A lot of ppl at the station were taking pics wif their camera phone.. so I did 2..
but my 2 megapixel phone wasn’t gud enuff to capture a gud pic though…

1st ‘riot-looking’ experience…

The country feels so luan now a days…
People like me who dun even bother to read the papers…

and even I’m aware of the 16th September thingie…

I dun giv a damn bout politics and I’ve become aware of it…
So the political issues in our country seems to b getting more serious huh..
Everything has changed since we were younger
And it feels that Malaysia isn’t such a safe country to stay in anymore =(

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All the research lab stuff nearly every single day… sounds like I got no life huh…
S O R T OF…
The only small bit of life I hav is…

Let me introduce u to “Leo-Potato”!!!

Dun ask me how this name came up…
But Leo came from Jason and Jamie the initial owners of this turtle/tortoise

(no idea how to differentiate turtle and tortoise..i’m confused)

and potato just came about sumhow ;P

And let me introduce..

Queen cactus! =)

Apparently turtles or whatever needs sunshine… and obviously cactuses do too..
So….

An “Inter-KINGDOM affair” ;P

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About a mth ago I attended the 3 days 2 nites Lifeline camp..
Very interesting..
Interesting topic.. Good news about Sex..
About sex in the context of Christianity…
Answers a lot of questions about pre-marital sex, abortion, contraception etc etc and y we shudnt do it in the context of the bible..
I mean we’re always told not to do it… but we nvr get to noe y in terms of religion..
When I work I’ll b dealing wif a lot of issues about contraception and whether I should dispense it since its against my religion… contraceptive pills, condoms etc.. at least now I noe wad to do in future when I face problems wif this =)
I was meant to go for this camp…
So many internal conflict in me about so many things and all the emo-ness at that time… the camp really did help..
After the camp.. it din solve any thing really but it just took away the burden…
how?? Its hard to explain but God work in his wonderful ways..

Anyways, got to meet a number of new frens and I found my old old 17 yrs ago playschool fren hehehe… we din really catch up coz we haven’t met in ages but it was nice enuff to noe wad she was doing now and all =)

my group members

deanna and i

17 yr old playschool fren~

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Went to Malacca for a day eating trip yest.
Nvr been out this far with the rest in west m’sia..
It was ok.
Laid back kinda ting…
Walking slowly at Jonker…
Looking around..
Eating..

The satay celup line was so long…
But we lined up…for TWO FREAKING HOURS…
For me it was worth the wait…
Worth it for the satay celup and worth it coz we got to catch up..
update each other on our lives…
and at the same time gossip
[heheh.. eva if u were there, we wud hav more gossip =(]

cool specs =) [wish vina was there 2~]

group photo after satay celup